Should i have sent that to him or not?

What you just said to me…got me pissed…but your ways of having me stop liking are pathetic and childish. I thought you were more of a person than you really are. I knew you were not a perfect person and not with out flaw but I…what the **** ever. I can’t stop getting mad at you. You know what everyone deserves the same respect the other person gives the other person and from what you just said to me showed me you have no respect what’s so ever for me. Weather you were playing your stupid little games to make people not like you or what…it showed no respect to me. You go through my head every single day since the last time we hung out. I never once hated you or disliked you…the only thing I hated and disliked was loving you and not being with you. When I saw you the other day I got so happy, my heart was pounding and when I said “YOO” and you said “hey how are you doing?” I got so happy and you sounded like you were happy to see me too (to me at least…and if it’s not true I like thinking that so I am going to think that). When I send you that message on msn I couldn’t wait for you to reply back. I was hoping for you to say “ME TOO” but that obliviously didn’t happen. Instead you said “yeah that is what my exes always tell me jha”. I am dumbfounded, annoyed, hurt, and in the mood to beat your ***, but like I said before everyone deserves the same respect they show others. Let me start by saying you were the first and will always be the first person I have ever let myself become this vulnerable and you were the first guy I’ve ever been with and you got me so insecure and you had me love you so much Jesus. But like you have said many times before it wouldn’t be the first time someone felt like that towards you. You had me think that with me it was something different. You had me believe that you didn’t want me just to be another guy for you. With what you have said to me just hurts me and makes me wish you were different and not be so childish as you are. **** it Jesus you are who you are. You’re a *****(and laugh Jesus I can see just see you now with that stupid grin). You tell me that you’re not ******* with anyone, which makes me assume that you still like me, but you write that to me. I thought of being in your care one day and just letting everything out and having you feel the same way. That was just a dream and I wish it was a reality. All this writing and I still haven’t made a point. Well Jesus you can read me and anticipate reaction from what you said to me and get joy or what ever you might get out of how you are making me feeling or how you assume I’m feeling, but remember this…(this will be the only time you’ll hear this from me)…you’re loosing one of the nicest and caring person you may ever meet.





I never wanted us to end up like this…:





Well, what I have to say I hope u keep it to your self but you can tell your friends if u want but I will appreciate that my name was omitted. Well yeah yesterday January 9, we broke up, I think it was faster that I though but I was feeling bad haha. I was reminding the time when I told u that I liked you but I did not know why. So when u say that u want to end it up in good terms, I was thinking on how strong were you at the moment. Well I would have tried that if the relation did not go well , I think it is not going way either way, but it would have been really hard for me to say not to something that I like. I don’t think it is stupid or smart , I just think that it happens for a reason. I said many reasons why it would not work out in a long term but I risked my destiny trying it. I feel sad of course haha . I would not be if I didn’t like you duhh.. that’s why I asked you to promised me that u wont be sad or upset so unless I can be ok knowing that u were ok. But I was not expecting that it happens. I am sad to loose a good person in my life. I think that I liked you because the way you are. You are not trying to be corrupted , manipulated or bad with others, things that I faced in many people I knew along my life . I think that’s why I liked so much. However as you said, we become better copping our grief, it is not the first time that I broke up with someone haha . I would tell to my friends but they don’t know about my situation and besides that I would not feel comfortable. Maybe I am strange or an idiot but I know that more bad things will happen if I reveal what I am lol haha. Well I will be ok so you don’t have to worry about this ***** anymore. I will need my time though to separate what I felt for you into a friendship because I cant right now. Eyyy and I wanted to go to the party with you guys haha I wanna say bye to your friends hahah they are cool. However what we said and did ourselves should stay like it is. If I am going , I am going to get fun so I don’t want to think about it over there . Well Mike, it was good be part of your life and learn about you. I wasn’t surprise of anything that u did because I think it is normal haha I dunno how normal it is though. But once one knows when to stop and move along with your life. I might have a lot of grammar mistakes haha but I had to write something about it(I miss my tutor). Well take care and good luck in everything you do. You are a good person (that is what I learn from my family, even though someone has all the money of the world or if that person know everything about the world , the most important thing is to be a good person with himself or herself and others) . I think someone else will see what I saw in you, and of course they will c your pictures on myspace ahah . but I think next time you will know more about more things haha I don’t want to be specify because we learn different things. Like me . not giving my ipop to anyone. After the second day will be ok but not the first one haha . Well I just gonna be doing what I always do haha . I will be studying my stocks haha I need to finish those books (I almost finsh the first one) and then school. I start my terrible schedule on Monday and then to school. Of course I see you at ncc I will recognize you saying something. About my personal life, mmm I dunno I really don’t know where to go with it, I may be good planning for my carrear but I think I am not doing a job in my personal life. I dunno let me try what you said once, go to the church , go to library so I can meet someone smart and good haha . But unfortunately I do not dumb girls haha my mother will be the most happiest but I want to find people who are smart or better that I am in some of my weakness. I don’t know where I am gonna be in 2 years or 5 years. But I would use the stupid philosophy of getting fun and enjoy every moment in your life because you only live once. Yeah I would have been used that haha . Well I have to do som3tehing today , I think I am going to run or going to the library. So take care mike and thanks for everything. Bye


Jesus Bojorquez














You had two doors to go through. The one with me waiting for you and wanting to just hug you and never let go and the other with out me…and you did not just closed the door and said good bye…you slammed the door in my face right when I when I opened it…. All I want between us is to have good vibes with each other…if friendship is too much to ask of you…

Should i have sent that to him or not?
If this is what was on your mind and how you truly feel disrespected, then heck yea, he should have gotten this a long time ago. You are so right, you deserve to be respected, and it is demanded to be respected! Yes, it hurts to be hurt by someone you truly felt love for .. but there is somebody out there that is going to respect you! Even when a couple breaks up, it should be done respectfully.. with out the tired games.





I am proud of you! Stand up for your thoughts and making them heard!!





ps.. I am not sure if Jesus will like the fact that you just brought him out of the closet through the internet though. I think that should be his choice to do. But, I am proud of you for coming out of the closet. Stand strong for what you believe in. You can never go wrong by being honest with yourself and others. I am sure that more people than you think already know it and are just waiting for you to realize it.
Reply:Hi,,,Boy you like him,,,yes?


well it hink you should have,,let them know exacly what you feel,,right to the point,,,
Reply:u shouldn't had sent that it too long. he probably not going to read anywho u know how guys are.lol they like short cuts. don't worry about it.
Reply:you regret the things you don't do more than the things you DO do.
Reply:haha theres no way im reading that lol
Reply:Long, but, really really entertaining!!! I cannot believe he did that to you!!! My gosh, i wish i could be right next to you in real life cheering ya on! man, yes you should have!!! My gosh, i don't know how you came up with the last paragraph, so like... just WOW basically!
Reply:how did u fit all that in thought you could only have certain amount of characters.


Hmmm sorry, but i'm not reading that. Should have shortened it, for the people who have lives..